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Awkward library find of the day: note that says "Dear Amy, don't get so mad at me when I try to help you. I ordered you these skin supplements as well so hope they help as I know the next period is going to be stressful for you, big hugs and kisses, Mom." Not that awkward, but I always feel weirdly voyeuristic when I read notes left in library books. Also, "Mom", if "Amy" is getting mad at you for helping, I don't think telling her she has bad skin is going to help, lol.

Saw Harry Potter last night with Trevor. That movie was filled with so much awkwardness, but I loved it. Yeah, they left stuff out and there was stuff I didn't like (how they handled the Half Blood prince thing, romance resolution, the way the Death Eaters left Hogwarts), but I really enjoyed it overall and felt like they did a good job of balancing the light romantic silliness with the heaviness of what was "really" going on. But I still don't ship Harry/Ginny, sorry. Harry/Luna, ftw. Also kind of Snape/Draco? Which was weird for me because I totally didn't see it in the books, but in the movie...mmmm. And Draco cried in the bathrooms like an emo kid, which I was waiting for through the whole movie. :D

Next up is Comic Con which I am getting more and more excited for. There aren't a ton of panels I want to go to, but there are enough and it will be so awesome to have people I know there!

Oh, and does anyone have any good book recommendations for me? I like books about female characters, that aren't too sad or written before 1900. Other than that, I'm open.

Boys make life so very difficult. But that's all I want to say about that.

So! I saw Bruno last night. It was okay. Not as funny as Borat, by any means, but still amusing. Mostly all I could think the whole time was "How does Isla Fisher put up with being married to this guy?? He's naked all over the place and puts himself in such dangerous situations!" Between insulting Osama Bin Laden to the leader of a terrorist organization (!!) and putting himself in a "cage match" that ended with him making out with his fighting partner (hott) in front of the kind of people who would see a cage match (omg, I was scared for his life and glad there was a cage), I pretty much just felt bad for his wife.

But! There was a trailer for Jennifer's Body. Now, I'm not normally one for horror movies, but I have the BIGGEST girl crush evar on Amanda Seyfried, omgggggg. I know most people are all omg Megan Fox, but I kind of think she looks like a beyotch. Give me Amanda Seyfried, especially in those geektastic glasses anyday, oh man. Also, it was written by Diablo Cody who wrote Juno, so that's exciting.

...and, yeah. Watching HP:GOF on ABC family. RPattz as Cedric is funny now, since he's *~~Edward~~*. Speaking of HP, I am soooo exxxxcited for midnight premier. Squee.

Oh man, AX was so fun. Like, there were definitely down moments (waiting in line, someone stealing our cow plushie, the whole stupid masquerade), and I wish I was there with more people (not that my brother wasn't an awesome con partner cuz he was!), but it was just SUCH a good time. I love cons in general so much, and AX is just so epic.

( On to the OMG MASSIVE PICTURE POST! (bust with cute commentary!) )

I love random cosplay pics. A lot of people took our pictures, too! Not like a ridiculous amount, but we were definitely recognized by a lot of people. My brother is all excited about cosplay now, too, so we were like coming up with everything we could think of to do together. He desperately wants to do Gourry from Slayers, but aside from that we were thinking humanoid Mew and Mewtwo and the Normals from Evangelion (Joel as Touji, Me as Hikari aka Class Rep, and KC as Kensuke).

Aside from cosplay...bought some posters, pins, jewelry, just the usual. Got an Anya from Geass cellphone strap and the littlest Nia for my sidekick, so that was sweet. KC got an Asuka figurine that we searched the whole exhibit hall for three days for. Umm...saw Anime Last Comic Standing, which was surprisingly funny. Also Whose Line is it Anime, which was funny too, but a bit repetitive with the 4chan jokes. Lots of things were over 9000 and such. Watched a screening of the Gurren Lagann movie! That was friggin sweet, that movie is so goddamn epic and watching it with a huge crowd who were all super into it was amazing. So much cheering. Also learned that Nia wears white g-string panties from the like head director guy, but I don't think I shall be including that in my cosplay plans. Oh, the masquerade fucking sucked, dude. It was the shittiest masq I have ever been to. Like, there were a few skits that didn't seem too bad...or at least they would have been, if the IT guys hadn't constantly messed up. Wrong music cues, playing something twice, stopping in the middle, speeding it up so it sounded like chipmunks...I mean, dude. Come on. It was just SO unprofessional. The chibi masquerade was better, for goodness's sake! That should never happen at a con as big as AX! It was so stupid. But we left as soon as the skits were done, so we managed to catch most of Last Comic Standing, which made it worth it.

Sooo...yeah. That was AX. Next is Comic Con, which is just an entirely different beast. I thought AX was crowded this year because there were 45,000ish people, but SDCC is maxed out again at 125,000. That is just an absurd number of people. But I'm looking forward to it! My next con is going to be Yaoi con in October. I got Trevor, my wonderful gay library friend, to go with me. He's even going to dress up as Miles Edgeworth from the Phoenix Wright games! I told him he might be mauled (this is a con made up of 85% hetero yaoi fangirls), but he's super excited. So that's sweet. And...yeah. Cons. Gotta lot 'em.

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I have found some amazing websites. Such as:

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Sweeeet. I love the internet. I've been in a cheery mood all day because tomorrow is AX! I was all stressed out yesterday because I had to pack and plan outfits, but now everything is DONE and I just have to drive home, have pizza with the mom and bro, then it's off to AX in the morning! I'm hoping Starry Candy Box has Memorial Cake...I was stalking the English AP site for like a WEEK and then the one morning I DON'T check, it gets uploaded. I wanted the skirt in white sooooo baaaaaaaad. Rawr.

Library today was fun! We found this hideously messed up area that we needed to re-shift, but instead of just one or two people shifting the area with a book truck, we created a human chain with half of our workers and two staff members and handed the books through and around the shelving ranges. It was pretty awesome.

( It feels good to dress up again )

I wrote the first draft of my personal narrative today. I'm writing about the time I met the little girl who had the same cancer I had at relay for life junior year. She was so sweet. She passed away about a year after I met her...I wish I'd kept more in contact or something. It's hard to write about it. I'm good at talking about my health problems in like a nonchalant, "yeah I had cancer twice just a fact of life you know" sort of way, but as soon as I actually tap into the emotional part of it? Not so easy. I've only recently really started even dealing with those issues, I've always really just pushed them away and specifically ignored them. But I suppose that's what writing a personal narrative is about.

Now I'm at the media center at the library waiting to watch the extra assigned video. Bleh. Have to write a "short paper" about it tonight, and then I'm free to watch the like 7 episodes of Gossip Girl I downloaded! Huzzah.

Wow, I have been off the grid as it were for like a solid week. That's EONS for me. My internet at home was down, my internet here has been choppy, and I'm never on desk anymore at work. I'm having withdrawals.

So my "summer", which was all of like 12 days, was all right. Watched a lot of anime, internetted quite a bit, saw Courtney, spent time fighting/talking/making up with Joel. You know...stuff. It was nice to not have anything to do during the day, though. It's been a looooong time since that has been the case.

Now I'm back in Santa Cruz and very alone. Like, during the year I talk extensively to five people: Nicole and Trevor at work, Tiffany in class, Joel on breaks, and Gillian in the evening. Nicole is in LA, Tiffany has graduated and is off in the world, Joel is on his month long coutnry-wide road trip, and Gillian is in New York and then Ireland until July 5th. I still se Trevor at work, but omg I am so alone. It's both nice and terrifying. I don't mind it so much...until it's like 1 AM and I can't sleep because I hear noises. It's not like Gillian being there would make me much safer were someone to break in, but I dunno. I don't like sleeping in a house alone.

Other than the alone thing, work is INTENSE and I don't think I'm going to like the class I'm taking. Work is like 7 straight hours of shelving and sorting. One snack break, one lunch break. We're not supposed to listen to our headphones (everyone does anyway, but I always feel guilty and nervous). Shit is bananas. My class is "personal narratives" where we watch a movie in class, discuss it, watch a movie out of class, write about it, all the while creating our own personal narrative that we must "perform" at the end of the quarter. Fizzuck.

Good things! I'm wearing Lolita for the first time in weeks! Joel has actually been calling/texting me more than once a day! I've made it past the 100 episode mark in One Piece! My Popuri from Harvest Moon costume is coming alone nicely! Anime Expo next weekend! I'm going to indulge in sushi tonight! The lack of buses is making me walk more, and thus I'm actually exercising!

I lead an exciting life.

Personality Quiz

( THIS IS WEIRDLY ACCURATE )

Also, I hate it when people have their facebooks privated to everyone but their friends. It makes stalking a lot harder. >:[

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It's really weird being home and not feeling rushed. I didn't get out of bed today until like 11, and wasn't dressed until noon. Glorious. Now I'm at the nail salon with my mom, waiting for them to finish her nails.

But Santa Maria is a strange place. I was kind of really excited to come home, but then as soon as I got here that familiar sense of ennui and oppressive boredom overtook me. I think a lot of that is second hand emotion from my mom, though.

I was thinking about why I ever miss Santa Maria, since when I left I was pretty much like THANK YOU JESUS NEVER GOING BACK FUCK YOU SM! I think part of it is that my feeling of marginalization is legitimate here. Like...so, in Santa Cruz everyone stares at me, but it feels a lot more unexpected and hostile there. Like, I'm so weird even the weirdos in Santa Cruz stare at me, so I just feel afraid and uncomfortable. But in Santa Maria, everyone is a normie or a dude bro or some other "normal", god-fearing Republican type of person, so I sort of revel in their disapproval. It feels good to be stared at because I feel like I'm like expanding their closed minded little worlds or something. Also, and possibly unrelated, people in SM just stare, they don't say things to me like people in SC do. So I get the kinda punk rock satisfaction of making people think outside their box AND I don't have to deal with people hitting on me because dressing weird = being kinky? Or something.

In other, unrelated news, I'm noticing boys again. I go through phases where I notice girls, where I notice no one, and where I notice boys and I am DEFINITELY in the last. I was noticing girls last quarter (omg, this one girl in my visual analysis class was so hot, when she sat next to me I seriously could not focus the whole hour and 45 mins of class), but now I've swung the other way. Its kind of fun, but kind of distressing. Oh well.

+ Doctor Who graffiti in the ladies bathroom in Social Sciences! It said "Are you the Doctor?" and then "Doctor Who?" and then something about him taking you on space time adventures. I almost died of exciting.

+ I just told Nicole "pshaw" and she told me to "pshut up". It was pretty awesome.

+ Our skit went over really well! It was the second funniest and everyone laughed at all the right parts, but especially my family and my boyfriend. And a really awesome awkward, took-a-moment-to-get-it laugh after I said I met "lots of nice men" in Akihabara.

+ The funniest skit was a Pokemon skit where they got sucked into the world of Pokemon and then used plushies to fight. In Japanese. There has been a lot of epic Pokemon-ness in my life lately!

+ I met a random Lolita at Joe's! I was just standing there and some girl is like, "Is your dress Angelic Pretty?" and I about jumped on her and was like OMG YOU KNOW LOLITA BE MY FRIEND WE ARE LEGION. I friended her on facebook and she says she's going to go to meet-ups next year!

+ Caaaaaaaaake. Japanese caaaaake. And also free food at the library. Luna bars that taste like Christmas! No, really. Try the chai Luna bars. Christmas.

Less cool was that I had to say goodbye to Lundberg-san (we sat next to each other for two years in Japanese, and now she's graduated. ;_;), and I have to work until midnight. But tomorrow home! Yayyy!