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I keep thinking about how much my life has changed in the last year, but especially the last three months.

I got very, very drunk last night. Drunk enough that I was still kinda drunk when I woke up this morning, and am now nursing my first genuine hangover. I went out to bars with people that I actually know, got very drunk, danced, made out with my boyfriend in public, got felt up by my gay bff, almost flashed whoever was standing behind me when I crawled over Jeremy to give Nicole a hug (thankfully Jeremy pulled my skirt down, lol), and overall had an amazing night of drunken debauchery.

If I went back in time and told myself I would be having this evening like four years ago? I'm not sure if my self then would be more proud or disapproving. I always envied people who were able to let themselves go enough to get that drunk and in public. I've always been a little bit uptight and have had a hard time socializing and letting to. I know drinking is not the be all end all of socializing or letting go, but in my age range it's kind of a big deal and it's what we're "supposed" to be doing. I always felt like I was missing out on that fun, but I also kind of felt like a little...superior? Because I didn't get wasted and stumble around and drink to the point where I felt like I was going to throw up. (I didn't throw up, btw, just felt a lil pukey this morning).

But I had so much fun. I never understood why people went to bars or got soo wasted and crazy, but it's fun. And it was a safe environment, I was with my coworkers, and my favorite coworkers at that, and my lovely boyfriend who knows how to take care of a hungover girl the next day.

So...yeah. This might not seem like a huge change, but if you knew me during certain points in my life? You'd know that it really, really is. A positive change, but a change none the less.

( songs )

I have been sick since last Wednesday and it SUCKS, man. Missed school/work on Thursday and Friday, missed half my work shift yesterday and school today, but am pushing through my work shift right now. I also got Jeremy sick, so today we sat on the couch together and sneezed and coughed and cuddled. Were were pathetic, but also kind of adorable.

I'm excited to get un-sick, though, cuz I have an exciting month ahead! I have almost weekly movie dates with my dearest Nicole to see a host of chick flicks, gonna see Wolfman and the Gurren Lagann movies (!!!) with Miss Julia, going to a super happening coworker bday party this Friday (I expect Edward Cullen and Ke$ha to be involved, so you know that's going to be good), and a museum/dinner/purikura date in the city for Valentine's Day! Me, an actual date, on Valentine's Day! I might even get flowers! (Plz note that Joel hated all holidays, dates, and flowers).

I told Jeremy he was a good boyfriend!! because he wanted to go out with me and he was just like, lol, that is what boyfriends are supposed to do, spend time with their girlfriends. I was just like not in my experience...*snuggles* <33

Formspring? I don't really know what this is, but I have one now...yeah.

Yeah.

Ask me questions? Or something?

( Found a battery charger! )

I am SO HAPPY to have a working camera again, you have no idea.

I've been in such a Lolita funk lately. We had a very small gathering at our house the other day, and everything I wanted to wear ended up being more fairy-kei than Lolita. I've been much more fairy-kei inspired lately, that and like Weetzie Bat style vintage. Which is all well and good, but it makes me a little bit sad...not really sure why.

However, I am considering a few purchases! Mostly the Dreamy Doll House skirt in mint, or possibly the new "Jewelry Jelly" in mint as well. What I really want is this jumper thing in any color but pink, but a) it's sold out and b) AGAIN with the fairy-kei.

Mostly I've been getting excited about AP's blouses lately, but they never come to Starry Candy Box OR the English site and I don't have a shopping service that I like. And they always seem to be sold out by the time I notice them on the website anyway. :/

So...Loli update time! I love hearing about what all y'all are excited about these days. :D

I feel kind of obnoxious, I have been living in a ridiculous lovebubble for like a full WEEK now. I'm just so happy and honeymoon-y and it's been so long since I've been happy about a boy with no strings attached.

( Reasons )

<3

( OMG pictures?? )

My camera died and I can't find the charger, so all I have is phone pictures. ;_; I've been dressin' up lately, too! Cuz Jeremy likes my clothes. :3

Jeremy is OFFICIALLY my boyfriend now, btw. :D And he gave me flowers! :DD

Here's a snapshot of my life right now: been back in school for a little over a week, already missed two full days, half a day of work, went to urgent care once, spent almost every night at Jeremy's, listening to Ke$ha's "Tik Tok" and "My Life Would Suck Without You" from Glee on repeat, went to a con where I saw Dustin MOTHERFREAKING EVERYWHERE but it wasn't too awkward, and...yeah. Why my life so busy? I kind of like it, obviously otherwise I wouldn't fill it so much, but goddamn.

( 76 Starry Celebrity )

Not bad considering I've only been a Lolita for like 2 years, maybe a little less. :3

2009 was a weird year for me. I feel like I spent a lot of it feeling very lost and uncertain. I came back from Japan and everything was different, and I was different, and I just wanted to go back. I spent most of the year stuck inside my head, yearing and/or wistfully staring out my window. It needed to be done...I really needed to reassess my life and figure out that I wasn't very happy with where it was, or where it was going. I am so glad I made (most) of the choices I did, and I think this might be the most content I have ever felt on a New Year's Eve, at least within my recent memory.

In 2010 I would like to:

+ Eat better
+ Exercise occasionally
+ Find a good balance between school, boys, family, friends, and self
+ Read books for fun more often
+ Wear whatever I want, when I want
+ Spend more energy on learning and USING Japanese

Also graduate, not die, etc etc, but those are things that I'm pretty sure I don't need to work on, they should (theoretically) just happen. Tonight is also a Blue Moon, so I think I might light a candle and meditate or do something witchy. Not really sure what, but it seems like a blue moon on New Year's is a big event, astronomically and magically and all that superstitious jazz.

Or I might pass out with the new Sookie Stackhouse novel at ten pm. We shall see.