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I NEED TO STOP BEING SUCH A EMO PILE OF CRAP AND FOCUS ON THE GOOD THINGS IN LIFE.

+NEW MOON THIS THURSDAY
+SEEING NICOLE AND JESSI THIS WEEKEND
+I DIDN'T FAIL JAPANESE
+THIS QUARTER ISN'T OVER YET, SO I STILL HAVE A CHANCE TO FIX MY GRADES


NOW I JUST NEED TO GET OUT THERE AND STOP BEING STUPID.

This entry brought to you by capslocks. Capslocks, when you need to tell everyone online how angry and/or cool and/or determined! you are.

Also, the statement on this shirt disturbs me greatly especially because I feel that way about I can't even type it, it feels too wrong.

So if I don't end up buying much at PMX (which I might not, since there really aren't any AP items I'm super lusting for right now), I think I shall reserve something in VM's new Rose Garden line from Tokyo Rebel.

I'm thinking either the Rose Garden Doll Dress or the Rose Garden Dress, or possibly the Rose Garden Shirring Dress. In moonlight bluuuuue. I love VM's florals, they're so maidenly without being...frumpy? I like classic, but dusky colors and couch patterns are not so much my thing. I like the china pattern sorts of designs. <3

How you doin'.

Yaoi-Con is tomorrow and I: have not packed, have not finished Luffy costume (still need binding tape and finishing touches on hat), have not printed out my survey business cards, have not bought snack food, or basically done ANYTHING in preparation.

Am I going to do any of this tonight? No. I am going to curl up and watch Buffy because it is cold, I am tired, and worn out.

But I'm very excited for tomorrow, it's the first step towards the new me.

Wish me luck. :)

( Old relationship )

Things to Do:
[x] Dye hair brown
[ ] Get hair cut
[ ] Get tattoo
[ ] Talk to stalkee
[ ] Go to more Lolita events
[ ] Work on Cosplay more
[ ] Put more effort into Japanese

There's probably more. I know there's already song lyrics on this shiz, but this is how I'm facing the future:

"And you'll go OH much better, HELLO much better, and soon all y'all gonna know much better, cuz I am so much better, I am so much better, I am so much better than before."

So, for those of you out of the loop or whatever, I am now officially one of all the single ladies.

If you didn't know, I've been with the same guy for 6 years, so since I was 16.

This has been a very, very long time coming. I've been unhappy for a long time now, and I need some time to myself to figure out what my deal is. I'm not very happy with myself, and I'm not going to be able to be happy with anyone else until I fix that.

We don't hate each other. We agreed if one of us ever needs the other, we can call each other and that's okay. We are probably going to talk again at the end of the quarter, but this isn't a break. We are broken up. That door is shut...it's just not locked, I guess.

So...now what?

I had every intention of getting a bunch of stuff done today. I was going to look up grad school app deadlines, scholarship deadlines, make a dent in GRE studying, study for Japanese tomorrow, finish the book for my history class, AND have time to watch Princess Tutu this evening.

I watched One Piece for a few hours this morning. Ate lunch, took Joel home and then...?

I've done nothing all day. I blame the gloomy weather, but mostly I'm just lazy and I had a stimulating Saturday, thus needing Sunday to relax.

Now I have to cram a day's worth into a few hours.

Blah.

I'm totally going to do the absolute minimum then get in bed and watch more One Piece or Princess Tutu.

>_>

Angelic Pretty Event at PMX

And the next Weekend....

Hello Kitty Art and Fashion Happening

Frrrrrrick. Here I was thinking, oh good, there's nothing AP related happening at PMX this year, so I don't have to worry about getting myself a ticket and getting down there. And then, a MONTH before the frickin event, they announce an AP Tea Party/Boutique/Fashion Show! The weekend before Julia and I were thinking about trying to go to the Hello Kitty event at Royal/T! My love for Angelic Pretty and my love for Hello Kitty must duke it out and I really do not know who shall come out victorious.

I should ttly just go to both.

No! That is expensive and ridiculous, you cannot make the 6 hour drive to LA two weekends in a row!

BUT AP AND HELLO KITTY.

HNNNNNNNNN.

MILKY-CHAN APPLIQUE.

Fffffffuuuuuuu. Waaaaaaaaant. I totally didn't like Milky-chan that much (I think it was the brown, but I dunno), but THIS. I think deers are some of the loveliest cutest animals evar, and it sax with the pinkie deer? ooooooomfg.

What are you guys drooling over these days? Lolita or not, clothing or just stuff in general. :)

( It's been awhile )

I've been in kind of a funk lately and I don't even know why. School's started, which I don't mind but I did have to suffer through a week of a class I didn't care about before my independent study got approved. Work is kinda shit because Trevor isn't there, and I'm mostly shelving which gives me wayyy too much time to get lost in the whirpool of my brain. Joel living on campus without a car is posing the same problems it did last year. Japanese is kind of really difficult because native speakers get places into J103, and, obviously, they are at a much higher level than those of us who started Japanese two years ago.

I've mostly been hiding in my room watching hours upon hours of One Piece. I love it so, so much. And I've passed the 250 episode mark! More than half way.

Now to watch Vampire Diaries and then ice cream with Joel. Hopefully it will make me feel better?